This is for all the people

who've inspired me once again. Thank you thank you thank you! <3

I've felt plenty of things this year (the biggest: discouragement) and sometimes felt nothing at all. I didn't realize that I was sleeping for all this time until just recently. "all this time" meaning months after serving in the Life in Christ Series. Discouragement mostly came from the Catholic Club. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't stand seeing the same 2 or 3 people, knowing that there are 928754209 more of us out there. And as for FCJ? Our saturdays at the teen house were limited to strictly the 2nd and 4th saturdays of the month. If we missed a week, we'd probably see one another 3 weeks from now. Operation BringOldMembersBack hit me hard though. Weeks of preparing... personally going to every member, retreat participant, acquaintance ... posting bulletins every so often... and it was only the same old same old. My first reaction these past couple of months was to ignore it and eventually not care anymore. I entertained thoughts of giving up.

But this time it's different. People all around me are changing, trying to better themselves. Some are turning their life completely around & it's God who's changing their hearts. And now He's changing mine. I'm ready, once again. To take up arms and re-enter this never ending battle. God FTW!

OH,

where have you gone? =/

We are broken - Paramore

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes, I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry, with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore our innocence
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again, cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice that came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights, I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore our innocence
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again, cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore our innocence
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again, cause we just wanna be whole


Song of the week. For quite some time, I've lived by these words from a song: "Do not allow your minds to be conformedto this age" I feel like I'm slowly changing... and I know people are susceptible to change. I just pray I'm going in the right direction. I guess what I'm really feeling is fear. Heckk yeah, I'm excited for senior year next year. But the older we get, the less innocent we seem to be. We try to be grown-up, doing our "grown-up" things, and most of us sacrifice innocence along the way. I dunno. Where the hay is our generation going? ahah.